Why Can't I Just Get it Together?

Today started out as such a great day. I got to work on time, work went well, I came home and cooked dinner, relaxed with my son, talked with my daughter, a good in depth talk, and we all ate dinner as a family. Then I relaxed on the couch with my son before my online class. That is when it all came crashing down.

I forgot my daughters online appointment. BAM! $100 FEE, I forgot to drop off my other duaghter's cheerleading uniform, BAM! Mom fail. Why did I forget these things? Everything was going so well! Why couldn't I just have done all of the things I was suppose to do.

Having these failures weigh heavy on my mind. Then, I stop and think. What would my other mom friends tell me right now or rather, what would I tell another mom friend right now? I already know what I would say and what my friends would say. It is okay that I missed the appointment, Its okay I missed the unifrom drop off. No one got hurt with me forgetting so I need to relax. But here is this certain mom guilt in life that only other moms can understand. We really feel like we have to do it all and when we fail, it is the most dreadful feeling. We feel like we lost out title, game over. When really, everyone makes mistakes. Everyday, all the time. Why am I being so hard on myself right now.

I am proud to report that I actually got over this pretty quickly this time. I didn't fall off the ledge. I took some strategies into play and having to teach my online class certainly helped. For me, when my anxiety starts to spiral, focusing on my five senses is super helpful. I try to smell the bag of lavender I got from yoga that is on my desk. I try to hear my favorite song, pop a mint or chocolate in my mouth. Anything that can distract my mind from falling apart. Luckily, I had to jump in class and we were playing a game so I was almost immediately off the hook. I had to put a happy face on and be there for my students. It helped. Now I am sitting here writing to you about this fiasco in hopes that it gives you some sense of relatability or maybe a new strategy to try. Maybe it is your distraction from whatever is going on in your life.

Either way, I am glad you are here. I am glad we can move on togther. Tomorrow is a new day and for the love of God I will be checking my calendar all day so I don't miss anything else!

Thank God tomorrow is Friday!

Choose Happy!