Wrong Place, Wrong Time

In this time traveling thriller, you connect with a mom Jen who is trying to see if she can stop a murder that she mistakenly sees her son make. While she has to watch him be put into custody, she struggles with knowing what to do. But when she wakes up the next day, she goes back in time before the murder occurred. She begins to wonder if she can go back and fix the chain of events leading up to the murder in order to stop it from happening. Each day she wakes up further and further back in time. She ends up finding out more secrets that she never would have known otherwise. Jen begins to see a different light to those she loves. In addition, she is put in life changing situations that she is tempted to tamper with in order to go back to a better future. Can Jen fix everything or will she make it worse? Check out "Wrong Place, Wrong Time."

It's Temporary

I was at my daughter's last basketball game yesterday, and the seating was less than desirable. There was just one long, silver, cold bleacher seat. I wanted to sit near the end so I could stand if I needed to. (I’m still recovering from surgery, and sitting is not always the most comfortable position) I also wanted the bench part that offered back support (a blue gym mat attached to the wall)  that aligns only with some of the wall. Things looked good until this older woman and her family came and sat beside me. There was still lots of room on either side of me, but she chose to sit right next to me. Immediate anxiety sits in. Not only did I not want to make small talk with her, but now I had to worry about her sitting so close to me. I didn’t want to slide over because I would lose the back support. I decided just to sit tight and deal with it.

When I thought it couldn’t get worse, four more people walked up to this lady, and they all started moving down the bench to fit. She looked over at me and silently asked me to move down. My insides clenched. What could I do? I didn’t want to be rude, so I slid down slightly. I tried to salvage a piece of the mat, but in the end, it wasn’t worth it. I slid all the way down and shivered until the seat warmed up again. 

I was pretty mad about the whole situation. I needed to reflect. I reminded myself this situation was temporary. Was it really worth getting angry over? No. Does this lady have any idea about my situation? No. Was she intentionally being hurtful? No. This was not worth my energy to be angry. This was temporary.

It took me a lot of time and work to develop this mindset. We are all human, and we have feelings. Having a mindset change does not mean I still don’t get angry or upset at stupid shit. I still very much have initial reactions. The change for me is that they are short lived. I have made it to a point where I can recognize my feelings quickly and examine my viewpoint to decide if those feelings are valid or if I need to take a step back and look at the situation from a different viewpoint. 

My hope that I can help others realize that reflection piece and handle their feelings and situations more easily. We have to consciously decide how we want to feel about them and live them out. Things can escalate quickly if we don’t stop ourselves. It’s even harder when you are part of a group and there is a fire starter around. It can be very tempting to jump on the misery ship and start making holes. 

At the end of the day, this was my daughter's last basketball game of the season. I didn’t want to remember the game this way. This memory I was making, and the joy I was experiencing watching her, was temporary! 

I Consider My Kids First

Being a mom is more than just having babies and loving and caring for them, which is the best part of course! But when you are a mother, there is so much more meaning to that label. Everything I do in my life revolves around my children. Before you come at me, let me explain.

I don’t mean that I don’t live and do things that make me happy. What I mean is that I consider them in all aspects of my life. I no longer only look after myself, I have three humans I am responsible for. I cannot just up and leave and travel the world, I can’t even go to sleep until they are settled in their beds. 

When you decide to become a mother, you give up your immediate free will. Before you make choices, you need to consider your children first. This is a concept that may not be realized right away. Because the thought of caring for a precious little baby usually comes first! Being a mother is by far the most rewarding experience of my life and I wouldn’t change it for the world. 

The realization of how much your life changes, is inconceivable. I remember being told several times “You won’t understand until you’re a mother.” I used to hate being told this. In fact I despised it. I was a teacher. I worked with children everyday. I knew how they were. I knew what needs they had. And then on October 5th, 2014 I became a mother and holy shit I knew NOTHING! 

You think you know, until you KNOW. There is no way to actually know what being a mother is until you are one. The constant care and responsibility for someone other than yourself is immense. But again, the most rewarding. There is no career that can compare to my raising my own tiny humans, and I work in human services! While I do very rewarding work, there is something to be said about a baby growing inside your body and that bond. There is nothing like it. And those moms who adopt and use surrogate mothers, the trust and responsibility you have to put in others to grow that baby for you, I can’t even imagine. I am sure it is immeasurable. 

Thing about being a mom is that it's a realization that life is not just about you anymore. It is also an amazing revelation that you get to teach someone about the world and share your wisdom and experiences. The light in your child's eyes when they learn something new or have a new experience can be one of the highlights of your life!